Weighty Issues

• Peanut butter & 1/2 banana on sandwich wheat thins bread
• 1/2 piece of cheesecake
• 4 mini pita breads topped with some hummus
• string cheese
• lots of grapes (i lost count)
• turkey burger (with mixed in red & yellow peppers & onions) topped with a slice of meunster cheese and mustard, all on sandwich wheat thins bread
• water consumption: not enough.  I didn’t use my water bottle, so I really don’t know.

So, today is my first No Weigh In November.  I did weigh in last week because I hadn’t come up with that plan yet and I weighed in at 210.  Yesterday, I weighed myself in the morning (208) and then later that afternoon, I got weighed in at the doctor’s office (215*).  I know that weight can fluctuate, but wow 7 lbs is a LOT.  So, I’m instead choosing to go by last week’s weigh in of 210 and see where I end up in December.  I’m totally nervous and freaked out to do this, but I need a break from the scale.  I’m so sick of seeing myself yo-yo between the same two numbers that I want to see if a break from the scale will break from the cycle.  

And I also decided that as a rule, if I’m not going to be weighing myself every day, then I have to record everything I eat, which I hate doing but I know in the long run will help me tremendously.  Case in point: cheesecake eaten today.  I honestly only opened it just to take a couple of bites and the next thing I knew, the whole slice was gone.  Bummer because it’s the best cheesecake ever (from Brio, my most favorite restaurant of all time.  OF ALL TIME)  But I’m choosing to look at the positive of this: the cheesecake didn’t trigger a binge.  It didn’t trigger a shame spiral.  It triggered me into thinking, “Okay, this is a screw up, but I’m going to eat healthy the rest of the day”.  And for the most part, that’s exactly what happened.  This healthy eating, it’s like riding a bicycle, eh?

*plus side/down side: the last time I saw my doctor (back in February), I weighed 215.  So, no gain…but no loss either, according to her records, which is just frustrating because I made it down to 199 this summer.  TWICE.  If anything, it just motivated me even more to get my ass into gear.  I’ll probably have to go back to the doctor’s in a couple of months to get blood work done (she’s been keeping an eye on my liver function/thyroid function/vitamin d levels), so I definitely want to see a loss by then.